Please stop reading here if u don want to be affected by it. I'm going to rant!!!
Hmm, it isn't a great day for me after all! Early in the morning, i was damn pissed off with somebody(not going to mention any names here). The whole day in school was equally bad too cos many things happened to me just like before. I found out many many many unbelievable things about people around me by different people who i think is trustworthy. Frankly speaking, i have the urge to cry everything out after i finding out so many true colours of people. However, i managed to hold it back after sometime. I ended up emo-ing. haiz! Its really hard to find someone TRUSTWORTHY! I have lost faith in everyone around me other than some... They are my family and Korkor. The only person that i trust most is God. No matter what i will accept it cos i know that God has his own plan for me which going to prosper me.
I'm really very tired of those sickening glut of conflicts happening among ourselves since last yr. Whatever its, i will always be the one who got the most hurt without anyone realising it. I had tried my very best to change the situation n myself just for the sake of everyone. Yet, none of u actually see it n its just making the situation worse. I dare to say that i tried my very best throughout the 20months! But what have i got back in return from all of u?! I noe nothing in this world is fair and prefect but am i so worthless that i don even deserve a better treatment than this... I don wanna put on a fake facial expression mask(happy face) to school everyday pretending nothing is wrong when we know that something is really wrong among us. What else do u all want me to do? I have suffered enough... How long more must i have to pull up with this nonsense?! To be honest, it really affects me badly until i Hate going to school every morning. It was because of my O level Certificate otherwise i won't even wanna go school at all. Better still, if there is a time machine i will like to go back to the time where i got my PSLE results n choose my sec sch over again! So that i would have to face such situation n lead a peaceful life. I did chose to close one eye open one eye abt it but i'm not toys or machine but human being who have feeling n senses. I'm not someone who u think u can play with like a toy! I wasted so much tears for all of u which i think its pointless. Two choices for u to choose: 1. Come straight to my face and tell me ur unhappiness instead of bitching abt me behind to others... 2. Tell me n F*** off my life! I don need people to be in my life who make me suffer just for them... Bye