After a rather long self reflection,i just realised tat beside me there are many ppl who care for me,worry for me,loves me a lot and more !!!

After a rather long self reflection,i just realised tat beside me there are many ppl who care for me,worry for me,loves me a lot and more !!!

My close fren is geraldine lu... but i don think i am fit to be her close fren as i cannot do anything for her !!! All i will do is to make her worry abt me alot, cried for me sadness, etc.

lulu, i am really very sorry !!! i have to leave u as in i will no longer be ur close fren from the day where i am leaving to other country..... i am really very sorry ... this is the only way i can forget u as in ......... i cannot face u becoz of tat !! i really don have the dace to face u leh. i noe saying those words will hurt u but i don really mind to do so ...

thanks for saying those touched words but i really don wan to leave u but i cannot help it as i cannot face u at all. i also cannot bear to leave u such a good fren tat god give me .. i am very blessed !!! I CANNOT BEAR TO LEAVE U !!!!!

u said the problem is lies on u but i don think so even u tell me i also cannot do anything jus to sit down there listening to u .. wat is the point ! there isn't a point lor....

i am still making a decision whether to leave/not ... i will sure make a decision which is the best.. no matter wat the decision is i hope i will not hurt u !!!

why nobody noe my feeling !!! no matter how i tell the person, he/she will not understand wat i said... end up i am wasting my time & effort saying those stuff.. haiiz


i am jus hopeless,useless and more. even the person ... who is very close to me also don noe wat is my real feeling.

thosewho think tat i have my smile back on my face are those been cheated by me as all the smile are FAKE !!!]God may i noe the answer to the question'why is it am i so sad everytime ??? haiiz