~ Heart broken! ~
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Hmm.
My mood SUCK since yesterday night...
I am not able to sleep even though i ate my medicine which was supposed to make me sleep.
At that period of time, i jus felt like eating sleeping pills jus to make me SLEEP!
So tat i'm able to sleep and not thinking abt those unhappy things.
Well, i wasn't happy thoughout the day in school.
From the time i wake up, i didn't smile at all.
Although, i did put on a strong front infront of my fren.
My heart felt so TERRIBLE!
I tried to use study to numb myself....
Do a lot of work, really really pay 100% attention in lesson, copy notes again n again.
I jus can't help thinking abt it.
Juliet Lim Xiuying, why are u such a failure???? Argh.
By the end of school, I finally received the One & Only msg that i have been waiting for hours.
I burst out crying after reading it.. My mind totally went blank!
That msg i received have marked the day very badly.
Tears can't stop flowing...
It went on and on for 3 hour!
I love you so much, I love you so deeply.
I gave out everything tat i could...
I sacrificed so much for you.
I put in so much effort to be with you.
I forgave you and gave so many chances...
I tried very hard to change myself.
I tried to suit you...
Every single word being said by YOU really mean a lot to me!
It will either make me smile or it will make my heart to bleed profusely.
You made a big impact to my life.
What have i got back in return? Criticism, Insult and unhappiness!
FREEDOM?!
Am i such a unfortuate gal who cannot be loved by someone? Was i really too much to be worried about you? Was i too much to ask for more time to be spend with me? Am i wrong to love someone like you? Am i worth better treating compared to this? Did i treat u so badly tat u have to return me in such manner? Nobody cares about my feeling including YOU!
