Moody Weekend!!
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Hihi, I am back again. OK, I shall start blogging on Saturday.. haha.
12 July 2008
For Saturday, we are suppose to have FUNFAIR at RI but it is Postpone!!! Argh.. Nvm since it cannot be changed. Talked abt this i still remember Mrs Vimi, our mother in school.. She said this to the whole class before" What is Within your control, Control it. And what is not within your control, Accept it." So ya since this is not within my control then i shall jus accept it...
I woke up quite early tat day as i am suppose to meet Carmen at her place at 10am. We will be going to J8 for CAC.. JIA YOU! haha. Both of us took a packed bus to Bishan library to do it. We were very focused on it till the battery is running low. Therefore we went to the library cafe to have some bite from there we had quite some fun together. Around afternoon XF came to join us. [ she over-slept]. haha. Anw, we managed to do quite a few things and decided on certain things.. haha. We went round everywhere like Long John sliver, Mac during our lunch outside and of course the whole Library jus to find a plug to charge the laptop.. But in the end after lunch, we were in the basement where the children section is, we found a plug. haha. After doing the last bit, i rushed home as I was supposed to reach home at 3pm but i left the library at tat time instead. Then i got scolded by my sister on my way home. Once i reached home, it is like everybody at home gave me a black face. It gave me tat kind of might as well don go home tat kind of feeling... Their face is like as if i owe them a big sum of money or something. wth. Soon after i fell asleep at the message chair. haha.[too tired liao] Once i woke up, my mother threw her temper at me lor for the whole day didn't wanna tok to me. haiz. Watever la, wat u wan me to do! sorri lor. At least i tried to rush back home liao rite. I didn't mean to be late!But still even though if i reach home on time, i also don have things to do at home then might as well discuss outside wit frens and get the work done. I seriously don noe wat are they thinking.. Finally until dinner time, my mother cooked porridge for dinner... And then she started talking to me. But untill night time before she goes to sleep, she threw her temper at me again saying "why haven't u turn in for bed yet. going to sleep late again ar. " At tat time, i was blogging rite, can't she jus let me blog alr then i would automatic turn in for bed lor. haiyo. [ slept at 12 plus]
The whole day, i kana scolding from my mother!!! This few weeks it is like i have been getting scolding from my parents, aunt, grandmother and more. Jus because i have been doing work till very late at night and reach home late from sch.. Early in the morning will kana scolding for sure some more!!! argh. As if i wan to make my life so difficult/hard for myself. It is jus tat since i have chosen the cca or the thing, i have responsibility in it so i should be putting in all my effort to get the thing done well... Is tat wrong? I am also a human being, don like to be pushed to the limit but on the other hand i am born to be a perfectionist. Everything i do must either near to perfect or best still perfect! But my standard have actually dropped since i start my secondary school life. I also don like the way i am now but still wat can i do? I am sacrificing my own sleeping time which leads to beauty jus to get things done well... [ Actually i am stressed up till i wanna break down soon liao] Argh!!! Nobody really understand my feeling... I realised tat i have being neglecting my studies, my results are dropping very badly... I seriously hope to get over everything asap so i can spend more time on my studies!!! Studies are important to me too... I noe tat my parents are showing care & concern to me but still i hope they can give me the least support n encourage me in whatever i am doing. Sometime i don't mean to be angry over such things even though i noe tat their intention was good for me but it is somehow really annoying as i am being nag over this issue almost everyday. I really hope someone could really be my pillar of support, encourage me on and lastly understand how i feel....
13 July 2008
Haha. As for today, my mother showed me a black face as usual and didn't wan to talk to anyone of us again.. I got rather angry because she kept throwing her temper at us without even wan to tell any of us the reason.. And i was told tat i am suppose to stand outside the house till my mother ask me to come back in yesterday but i didn't as i was not told to do so at that point in time. I was even maligned for telling a lie to her somehow.. I did tell my father abt i am going to J8 and he actually allowed me to go for it but he told my mother the other way round. Wth lor. Anw, after that we went out for Breakfast at abt 10plus.. haha. Quarrel wit my sister also.... BAD DAY!!! Came back home then tidy the house and started doing homework.. After tathad headache so when to take a nap. Everything is like back to normal, spent sometime relaxing by watching television after tat when to use com lor... haha. Did some work also la. Then the whole day is like gone! haha. Got rather pissed off jus now [9.40pm] by some people....
[ It is not only Carmen and i in the competition rite, u all also inside lor... But it seems like everything we are doing it jus because u all are busy tat does not mean we are not busy too... In fact even more busy than u all la.. Haiz. argh]
Let's see my schedule for this week... Must be very busy also. haha.
Mon: CAC [props]
Tue: NDP rehearsal & Tuition
Wed: Rush Homework & CAC [maybe]
Thurs: CAC & extra lesson in school.
Fri: NDP rehearsal & do the last preparation for CAC
Sat: CURRENT AFFAIRS COMPETITION [CAC] Jia you!! All the best!
Sun: study time!!! [Homework & test] Important!
Yup indeed very busy.. haha. okay getting late liao tmr still having school and my back problem is back again. [damn painful] so ya i shall end off wit a quote from the bible again. =]
I love this verse a lot!!
" For I know the plans i have for you, declares the LORD," plans to prosper you and not harm to you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11
Love, Juliet=]
p.s SIMLE ALWAYS. THINK POSITIVELY!!!
