Friday, December 1, 2006
Tmr afternoon i will be leaving singapore !!! But in my mind there is still some things which i cannot bear to leave it jus like it is and words/decision i haven't let the other party noe abt it... i jus feel like hugging someone tightly and cry out all my feelings... ppl may think tat i am crazy but i think tat way will be better than crying alone at night and it is not 100% of my feelings were being cried out.. maybe only 10% of it will be cried out !!
i may seem or sound like i am ok no problem at all... But who noe abt my heart the real feelings ?? [never judge things by its cover] in fact in my heart there are alot of knot which cannot mend ... there are things which make me HATE alot of, things tat make me HEARTBROKEN, things tat make me MISS THE TIME I HAD SPENT WITH SOMEONE IN MY LIFE, things tat make me FEEL BAD/GULITY OF!
There are something which cannot be avoided but i jus don noe why must it be happening on me not other people BUT ME !! Also there is someone i love as in relationship but the other party does not appreciate me in fact treating me like something...OR EVEN DON NOE WHO I LOVED. i am like jus making a fool of myself !! i am wandering whether u noe how much u mean to me !! I CRIED FOR U, DON WAN TO TAKE MEALS, DON WAN TO DRINK WATER, MAKE MYSELF SUFFER SO MUCH JUS BECAUSE I LOVE U A LOT !!!! if u don like me or wat jus tell me... don break my heart so much until it cannot be mend back!! JUS SAY IT OUT AT LEAST I WILL NOT SUFFER SO MUCH JUS FEEL LIKE DYING...SHORT TERM OF SUFFERING IS BETTER THAN LONG TERM OF SUFFERING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE TELL ME... I DON WAN TO BE A FOOL ANYMORE! I DON WAN! I DON WAN! I REALLY DON WAN!!!!!!! or maybe from the start i and u will is impossible at all .... if tat really the case then we shall end it there !!Although it will still hurt me a lot but tat is only for a short period of time after tat i will be fine... so don worry abt me because juju may seem weak in ur heart but actually if she think tat she wan to be strong than she will make it !DON WORRY IN FACT THERE ISN'T A NEED TO DO SO ....
I SAID BEFORE THIS, IF U ARE HERE TO HURT ME THEN I WOULD LIKE U TO LEAVE ME ALONE THEN U ARE BESIDE ME ALWAYS !!!
